Why do we as women
have such a hard time when it comes to trusting that we are enough? Why do we struggle with insecurity? I don’t
know about you but it’s a question that often pops into my head.
Am I good enough?
Am I pretty enough?
Am I skinny enough?
Am I enough for my husband?
Am I enough when it
comes to accomplishing all God has placed before me?
Am I a good enough
wife?
Am I a good enough
mommy?
I cannot help but
think I am lacking in more than one way. BUT WHY?
My husband tells me
daily how much he loves me, how beautiful I am and that Otis is so lucky to
have me as his mommy. He expresses his gratitude to me and all I do. So WHY do
I still struggle?
It goes back to Eve.
We all know the story of Adam and Eve. We’ve been told it since Sunday school.
But it wasn’t until I re-read Genesis 3 that I realized how much my heart
reflected the heart of Eve.
God created the earth
and filled it with every beautiful thing imaginable and He gave it all to us
because He deemed us as worthy to care for His creation (Genesis 1). He knew
that although we weren’t perfect we were enough because we were created in His
image and likeness. But things went south in Genesis 3.
God told Adam and Eve that they were welcome to eat of every tree
in the garden EXCEPT the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. The serpent
whispered to the woman, “Did God really
say you must not eat the fruit from ANY of the trees in the garden?” Eve
replied, “It’s only the fruit from the tree in the middle of the garden that we
are not allowed to eat. God said, ‘You must not eat it or even touch it; if you
do, you will die.’” “You won’t die!” the serpent replied to the woman. “God knows that your
eyes will be opened as soon as you eat it, and you will be like God, knowing
both good and evil.” THE WOMAN WAS CONVINCED. What was she convinced
of? She was convinced that she could not trust God. She was convinced that she was not enough and needed
to take matters into her own hands in order to be BETTER, to be like God so she
could become enough. It was her insecurity that drove her to sin.
No matter how much my husband
tells me I am enough. No matter how
often he tells me I am beautiful, I am sexy and extravagant there is still a part
of my heart that believes the opposite. No matter how much I love on and cuddle
Otis, no matter how much I put him first there is still a part of my heart that
thinks I am failing as a mom. No matter how much I speak my husbands love
language, serve him, keep up our house, I still feel like I am not a good wife.
I cannot help but doubt that I am enough.
But you know what? God put it
best when he said:
“ I have called you by
name; you are mine.
When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
I gave Ethiopia[a] and Seba in your place.
Others were given in exchange for you.
I traded their lives for yours
because you are precious to me.
You are honored, and I love you.”
When you go through deep waters,
I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty,
you will not drown.
When you walk through the fire of oppression,
you will not be burned up;
the flames will not consume you.
For I am the Lord, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior.
I gave Egypt as a ransom for your freedom;
I gave Ethiopia[a] and Seba in your place.
Others were given in exchange for you.
I traded their lives for yours
because you are precious to me.
You are honored, and I love you.”
Isaiah 43:2-4
Y’all the Creator of every beautiful thing thinks I am enough. He
thinks you are enough. He thinks we are precious and He loves us. Every
imperfect thing within us He finds wildly beautiful. He knew we would go
through difficult times, He knew we would face oppression and feel less than but
He said from the beginning of time “can’t you see, if I didn’t think you were
enough I would have never wasted my time creating every living and non living
thing for you. If I didn’t think you were enough I would have never sent my Son
to die for you just so I could bring you back to me. I am passionately in love
with YOU. Not your acts. Not your looks. Not how you are as a wife or mom. I am
passionately in love with you, all of you! Believe me when I say, I love YOU my
sweet precious daughter.”
Because of the fall we were cursed, but because of our Savior
Jesus Christ we have redeemed from the curse (Galatians 3:13). So wife, mommy,
sister in Christ; you can either believe the lie that is attached to the curse
OR you can believe the truth that is attached to the blood of Christ that
screams YOU ARE ENOUGH.
The enemy will always try to whisper lies to you. He loves when you are insecure because when you are insecure your walls are down and you are vulnerable to other attacks. As long as you
are living he will constantly try to convince you that you aren’t enough and that
God doesn’t love you. He will try to make you believe that your husband wants
more, that your baby deserves better, that God doesn’t have a good plan for you
but resist those lies! Stand tall, fix that beautiful crown that God placed upon your head and strut your stuff! You, my beautiful sister, will ALWAYS be enough!